Days like this I sit back and look at the life around me not complaining I have a great life now I'm happier I have people that I surround myself with that I care about and they care about me too. But I look around and the faces I see aren't my 'family' they are family but not my blood family not that, that even matters, but with days like this when I miss my Grandma the most I feel like I have no one to turn too. Don't get me wrong I love my new family with all my heart and I'm very great full for everything they have done for me no words can describe how much I care for them they are forever apart of my heart.
I just miss my Grandma everything today has reminded me soo much of her. I just want someone to sit down and talk about her and just sit there and smile because an old memory of her had popped in our heads at the exact same time and it was the exact same thought. I just miss her smile and want someone to share that with.
See I'm not really on good terms with my family more less I mean my mother, and my family lives in Washington they live their own lives I hardly talk to them. but I dunno where I'm going with this. I guess just lately I've been missing my family like crazy and I dont have a car and I work so I never really have the time to just leave and go up state to see them..
But anyways theres this old lady I see every day on my way to work and for some reason she reminds me of my Grandma they look nothing alike but theres something there that makes me think of Grandma.. and sometimes I just want to go up to her and hug her but that would be kind of weird.. ha eh I have no idea where this is going..
